What Have I E'er Done?

A few days ago, Jer and I looked through all of my old journals -- a large stack of my writing since the age of 13. We were looking mainly for all the poetry I've written -- 69 in the journals alone. If it hadn't been for a few computer crashes, I would have around 100 poems. We also had fun giggling over what I wrote: dramatic crushes (I was such a romantic), funny entries, and lists of all sorts. A list I found interesting was one I wrote at the age of thirteen with all the requirements I wanted in a future husband. Amazingly, it has hardly changed (not that I currently keep a "shopping list," but I know what I want).

Something else I ran across was a composition Jer wrote in sixth grade (he is now in ninth). He was supposed to write a paragraph about someone he admired, I think. Every time I read it, I get all misty-eyed.


This inspired me to write "What Have I E'er Done?"

How did I e'er win
Your admiration and love?
What have I e'er done
To earn your high esteem?

Why did you notice me
When nothing I have done
Is worthy of your love?
I cannot comprehend.

Or is it unmerited?
This adoration sublime
Cannot be earned by deeds
Or merited by works.

This still holds true for me today. I still cannot understand why people are attracted to me. All I can say is it must be Christ. Without Him, I'd be just a bitter and empty shell of a person. Praise the Lord! He has died on my behalf and made me a whole person.

"Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven." (Matthew 5:16)