15 April 2006

What Have I E'er Done?

A few days ago, Jer and I looked through all of my old journals -- a large stack of my writing since the age of 13. We were looking mainly for all the poetry I've written -- 69 in the journals alone. If it hadn't been for a few computer crashes, I would have around 100 poems. We also had fun giggling over what I wrote: dramatic crushes (I was such a romantic), funny entries, and lists of all sorts. A list I found interesting was one I wrote at the age of thirteen with all the requirements I wanted in a future husband. Amazingly, it has hardly changed (not that I currently keep a "shopping list," but I know what I want).

Something else I ran across was a composition Jer wrote in sixth grade (he is now in ninth). He was supposed to write a paragraph about someone he admired, I think. Every time I read it, I get all misty-eyed.

This inspired me to write "What Have I E'er Done?"

How did I e'er win
Your admiration and love?
What have I e'er done
To earn your high esteem?

Why did you notice me
When nothing I have done
Is worthy of your love?
I cannot comprehend.

Or is it unmerited?
This adoration sublime
Cannot be earned by deeds
Or merited by works.

This still holds true for me today. I still cannot understand why people are attracted to me. All I can say is it must be Christ. Without Him, I'd be just a bitter and empty shell of a person. Praise the Lord! He has died on my behalf and made me a whole person.

"Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven." (Matthew 5:16)


At 15 April, 2006 19:41, Blogger Redeemed said...

Wow, Carey, seriously that is amazing. Your brother is really sweet, but I'm also very touched that you've always loved the Lord and had a passion to serve Him.

It's just incredible that even as such a young age you impacted your brother with your love and passion for God.

That's a really excellent poem too!

Carey sweets, you are much loved!

At 15 April, 2006 19:45, Blogger Carey said...

My brother is sweet. What shocked me is that Jer knows me better than anyone -- he knows all my deep, "dark" secrets -- and yet he still has a high opinion of me. Incredible.

Thanks so much, sweet Sarah. That made me feel all warm and fuzzy. *hugs*

At 16 April, 2006 11:38, Blogger Redeemed said...

You are a wonderful person, Carey, and a great blessing!

At 16 April, 2006 11:43, Blogger Carey said...

Awwwwww... *sniffle*

At 16 April, 2006 11:43, Blogger Carey said...

You too!

At 16 April, 2006 12:08, Blogger Redeemed said...


Now u got me sniffling..snif, snif :(

At 16 April, 2006 13:41, Blogger Carey said...

*passes Sarah a tissue*

At 16 April, 2006 14:46, Blogger TheEarthCanBeMoved said...

So Jer is the one we go to to get all the dirt?

At 16 April, 2006 18:55, Blogger Carey said...

Don't even think about it, Jason. First of all, I don't have any "dirt." While there are some things I am sorry about, I am not afraid to be honest if you ask. Secondly, Jer won't tell you anything. I know all of his "dirt" too, so the secret-keeping is mutual.

At 16 April, 2006 19:10, Blogger TheEarthCanBeMoved said...

You know I was kidding right?

At 16 April, 2006 20:42, Blogger Carey said...

Of course.

At 17 April, 2006 06:00, Blogger Palm boy said...

Invoked a pretty stong response.
Maybe you were onto something. :D

At 17 April, 2006 09:53, Blogger Carey said...

Silence, Robert.

At 17 April, 2006 09:55, Blogger Carey said...

*laughs* Silence, mortal! *giggle*


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