Due Date

I have been told never to pray for two things: patience and trials. I must be a glutton for punishment. It's been four months since my last "trial" and I guess I was in for another trying period. This morning my computer died... and none of my files were backed up. I have lost everything -- my school papers, my poetry, my plays, my short stories -- but most importantly, my photography. All of my nature photography is gone. I can re-write papers and stories, but I will never be able to photograph the same sunset, the same tree, or the same water droplet. It's all gone.

Surprisingly, I have a peace about this. There are times in my life where God "pulls out the rug" and I have to start from scratch with everything -- relationships, a home, church. Life is so fragile. I take for granted the things and people I love. They could be taken away from me unexpectedly or drastically change at a moment's notice.

This has just confirmed in my mind even more how fleeting life really is. And I have also learned that I should back up my files. If only I could do that with people and go back to the ways things were when something gets messed up. Unfortunately, you can't erase that.